| Okay.. so.. I have a lot to write about today, some of it may be interesting, some of it may not be.. we'll see what happens.
To start with.. Utah Shout Camp (8/5/05 - 8/7/05)
- Highlights -
Seeing all my friends from Socal (Josh [cousin] and Berthie), Vegas (Kyle, Rian, and Marlan), and Colorado (Anna)
Quoting lines from Anchorman over and over.. because some how they never get old.
Playing the game "slap" and screaming everytime you slap the cards as if you've touched a hot stove
Crying when I got frusterated with a mock household that I was the leader of
Crying for God
"Anna Loser"
Walking blindfolded around a strangers garage
Watching the Vegas kids beat eachother up
Watching Rian step on Josh's head on accident..
Watcthing Rian and Marlan roll down a hill in their little acrobatic form
Painting Kyle's nails
Calling Marlan by the wrong name
Being called Brynn by Kyle.. when my name is Brie, and Brynn is my friend that he's never even met
Being told that I was made to be a leader
Being able to actually speak to God outloud without caring that the people around me could hear me
Knowing that there's a reason for me living in Utah
Everyone from Socal, and Vegas signing my arms with Sharpies
Giving out stickers to the cutest little kids at the mall, and seeing how happy they looked
..... and so much more....
anyways.. something else, on more of a more upsetting note.. I love my friends here so much.. and I absolutely love all of my friends in Yfc.. what i don't love, is how they just don't seem to mix. The fact that I'm in yfc shouldn't have to change the relationship i have with my already existing friends. I hate how they don't understand what i love about it, and how all they can do is make fun of the things i believe.. while at the same time saying "but we still love you". They laugh at the fact that i sing to worship God.. they think the whole thought of God is a laugh itself... During camp, we were praying in a circle, when my phone rang.. i quickly picked it up and hung up, and turned off my phone. As soon as camp was over, i talked to my friend that had called me that night, and explained to him why i had to hang up. I told him that i was in the middle of something spiritual, and quiet, and he gladly says "YES!! I RULE!" thinking that I liked the fact that he disturbed the prayer.. of course he didn't do it on purpose, but he was so happy about the fact that he did disturb it. Which makes me upset.. I hate how they know that i love what Yfc does for me, yet they have to make jokes about it, thinking that i'm going to give up, and laugh with them, well.. I'm not laughing. I wish that they could just respect my decision and keep those jokes quiet from me. Don't get me wrong.. not all of my friends do this. A lot of them are really respectful of the fact that I have my beliefs.. but i'm starting to think that some of them aren't so good for me to hang around with.. ugh.. but i hate it when religion becomes and issue in friendship.. ugh. so talking about that makes me really frusterated. All i want to do is find close friends here that I can share that love with. I want to have friends that I can sing worship songs with, that will sing with me. I want to find a friend that wouldn't laugh at me for singing worship songs about God. I want to find a friend that would pray with me.. I want to find friends here in Utah, that are exactly like all of my friends in Yfc from all the other states..
i don't know how to end this blog.. so let's just quote a line from Anchorman one last time this weekend..
"I love lamp"
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